What I’ve Gained In East Lansing

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It is the last week of my second year at Michigan State, and for some reason I have found myself reflecting on these past two years every chance I get.

The other day, I was talking to a friend that’s about to graduate. She was talking about how much she’s gained from her four years at MSU, and how great its been. That really stuck to me. It got me thinking…what have I gained in the past two years at MSU?

When I first started thinking about this, I panicked. I felt like I needed to line up all of the perfect parts of my life that I’ve gained from transferring here. A potential job lined up for after graduation, someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with, a list of potential bridesmaids, etc. etc.

The short answer–I have none of those things at the moment. Well, besides a list of potential bridesmaids for a wedding that may or may not ever happen. Does that mean I’ve gained nothing?

No, not at all.

So, what have I gained from the past 2 years here? What will I cherish for the rest of my life and thank Michigan State for?

I am struggling to organize my thoughts on this question. There are so so many aspects of my life that wouldn’t be the way that they are without my decision to transfer to Michigan State two years ago. I wouldn’t have gained the most important friendships in my life. I wouldn’t have an enormous network of inspiring, driven people, motivating me to be my best self.

I wouldn’t have found my passion for inner-city/urban education.

I wouldn’t have all the opportunities I’ve had to chase my dreams.

I wouldn’t be able to call East Lansing home.

It’s crazy to think how a decision that I made two years ago in a mind that is so vastly different from my mind today, can play such a huge role in how my life has played out. As I continue through my fifth and final year, I will continue to reflect and write down my raw thoughts and feelings. I will take in every single moment and take nothing for granted. And I will look forward to what is to come.

So did I find my soul mate? No, maybe not. But that’s not what I came here looking for. I came here looking to find lifelong friendships. I came here looking to chase my dreams. I came here looking to find myself. And I can honestly and confidently say that’s what I’m going to walk away with in one short year.

xx, Madi

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2 thoughts on “What I’ve Gained In East Lansing

  1. College life changes you so much. I always marvel at the way youngsters out of high school grow after their years in a university. Love the way you are able to see it and report it from the inside, while it is happening. A gift worth sharing.

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